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Love, Hate and Guilt

Elan Elan
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This is my first interaction on your planet since Egypt as well, and I am quite excited about this. Also, understand that you have had perhaps somewhat publicized many energy gates in your society—what you call 11:11. Allow me to again express my joy at sharing with you 12:12. We shall entitle this interaction: Love, Hate, and Guilt.

Now, as you know, there are many forms of love upon your planet in that you express, shall we say, many separations in the concept you call love. For our particular discourse and explanation, we will simply utilize two expressions of love: that is, conditional and unconditional love.

Unconditional love is exactly that—that would directly correspond to love which has no conditions placed upon it and is automatic, ever-flowing, ever-existing, cannot be withdrawn, for there are simply no conditions that need be fulfilled for the giving and sharing of that love. This is indeed the love of what you call God, or what we call All That Is itself. In fact, perhaps more appropo is the idea that All That Is is unconditional love itself and therefore cannot judge; does not contain the concept of judgment, which is the imposition of conditions which, when not met, in a sense, the withdrawal of love results.

Therefore, you may understand that when you feel what you call judgment, you are never feeling it from All That Is. That is simply impossible. What you are feeling is your own created version of standards which, when not met, then result in that sense to the withdrawal of self-love. Therefore, understand that as you contain the concept of conditional self-love itself, you also contain the concept of unconditional self-love. And many times, simply this being pointed out will allow you to begin, if you wish, to see when you are imposing conditions and when you are willing to love yourself completely unconditionally.

For the idea is that because All That Is loves you unconditionally—and this is constant, this is never changing—that energy can always be tapped into and matched within yourself. For again, it is constant, and you can simply, in remembering, in realizing that that unconditional love exists, mimic that self-love. In a sense, you may say simply refusing to withdraw your self-love which you have in that sense earned. Therefore, you can be willing to not settle for any less than loving yourself.

But you do contain within your society the idea you call conditional love. And when you are expressing conditional love to individuals, basically you are loving them when they meet your conditions or when you feel that they fulfill your standards. This is not again exactly what you would call the love of All That Is and is perhaps one of the more unique creations of your society in being able to express within the unconditional of All That Is itself conditions. When individuals in that sense do not meet your conditions, many times still feeling a sense of self-love, still feeling a sense of deservability, you will create an emotion, a polarized expression of conditional love you call hate.

And many times individuals will say, “Well, hate is the opposite of love.” In a sense, this is true from the perspective of conditional love, but not from the perspective of unconditional love. For again, unconditional love of self results in what you would call the expression of deservability. And if you feel deserving but feel that someone has not met your conditions, you express this as hate. And what you call hate, in order to become so righteously indignant about it, does still contain some feelings of deservability. So therefore, if you have any expression of self-love, that in a sense would then not be the true opposite of unconditional love; it would be a polarized expression of unconditional love.

Guilt, however, is the true opposite of unconditional love. For when you are expressing guilt, you are not realizing and acknowledging your creatorhood. You are not realizing and acknowledging your deservability, your ability to understand that you deserve to exist and you deserve to create a life of joy and ecstasy. So in that sense, guilt is the complete withdrawal of unconditional self-love and therefore is the opposite of love itself.

When you feel this, many times individuals will ascribe that it is a positive feeling, for in that sense it controls you or, shall we say, holds the reins from you doing things that are out of integrity. But understand, this is not using your creations in the most positive of ways. You need not withdraw self-love when you do not meet your conditions and have that be a form in that sense of positive self-reflection. For when you withdraw that self-love, you are no longer in the centered position to, shall we say, transform your creations according to preference. And in that sense, you create a sense of perceived helplessness through which you then create paralysis. That paralysis does not allow you once again to transform.

So when you feel what you call guilt, you may use that as well as a reminder that in the moment you are creating that, you are not unconditionally loving yourself. And once you realize that you are not, then you put yourself back in the pivotal position to decide whether you wish to or not—whether, again, after all you have accomplished and learned, whether you will settle for anything less than your complete unconditional self-love. If you do something that you do not prefer and that you find most out of your integrity, guilt again introduces a paralysis to transform it. Acknowledgment allows you to transform it by perhaps again realizing that what I have just done is not within myself or sense of self-integrity. Therefore, I understand that the feeling that I am generating tells me this, and therefore I realize that should a similar set of circumstances come along, I will now use the fact that I have done this unpreferred thing as evidence that next time I will not. And when—and it always will—you will always create this a similar situation comes along, you will then have the opportunity in not doing that thing to create what you call balance.

There is the assumption that if you do something out of your integrity that your karmic balance must come in the form of retribution. And obviously, I need not tell you that this is one way that you can create the balance. But another way to create the balance is again to acknowledge that what you have done is not a representation of who you choose to be. And when you attract again—which you will, this is an exploration—a similar set of circumstances and then do not do that thing that you feel is out of your integrity, you have established balance in no uncertain terms. You have allowed yourself to act as a Creator, creating feedback from your reality and using that feedback with a foundational unconditional self-love to transform it into a preferential expression.

Is this clear? Is it clear to more than one? All right. When we exchange, we will allow for clarification of specifics. But again, the point is this: you always have the option, you always have the opportunity to not place conditions on your self-love. Again, All That Is loves you unconditionally, and this can always be tapped into, for it is not something which ever changes; it is constant. The reminder that it is constant is all that it takes to drum up the vibration of that feeling: “I am loved no matter what.” If All That Is, if God, loves me no matter what, do I not deserve to treat myself with the same respect?

If you remove the conditions of your love, you will use all your creations in a positive way. You will understand that the negative creations are results of unconsciously bought-into beliefs, and that by allowing them to come up, they become conscious. If you deny a creation, you tuck it back into what you call your subconscious. If you acknowledge it, you allow yourself the opportunity to transform and change it. Again, you cannot get rid of a belief that you do not in that sense prefer, for there is nowhere to put it. You are the entire universe. You can, however, transform it, but again only by putting it out on the table. An acknowledgment of an unpreferred belief puts it on the table; denial sticks it back in again, perhaps what we can call the subconscious closet. Once your choices are before you on, again colloquially speaking, the table, you then have equal access to them. If you tuck the things you do not prefer about yourself in the closet, you do not have equal access. You have surrounded and isolated the things you do not prefer and taking them out of your reach.

Unconditional self-love is the willingness to use all your creations, even the ones that appear negative. And once again, we remind you of what we have called the wild card: that you can always use any creation in a positive way by simply asking yourself, after perhaps you ascribe the more obvious everyone-knows societal negative label: “How does this serve me exactly the way it is?” This question is what we call the wild card, for you can always pull it out and it always then completes your deck, completes your hand.

Therefore, to allow for interchange and to allow for clarification of any specifics that may arise from this particular explanation, we will proceed to the interaction. Though before we do, allow me to once again, and yet for the first time, thank you all for your willingness to begin to act as a Creator. This generally in your society will begin on a conceptual level as you create these separations. But understand that the having of the idea is in that moment the same as the being of the idea. So once you realize that it is a concept to self-empower yourself, in the moment you realize that, at least for that moment, you are that idea. Very often you will then create separations between yourself and that idea, but simply in bringing it up again as a concept, you become the idea. Whenever you bring anything up as a concept, in order to do so, you are the idea itself in the moment you are bringing it up. So it is very simple in that sense to become anything you wish if you no longer draw the separation.

“Well, I mentally know that, but how does that apply?” When you mentally know it, you are it in that moment. If you choose to continue to be that, you will get that effect. If you choose, after drumming it up and being it, to then create separations that it was just a concept, then you get that effect. But it is all up to you and always will be.

And it brings us great joy, and the only thing in fact that allows us the opportunity to interact with you, is the concept that you are now willing to entertain these notions not only as a concept but as an action in your life. For as physical beings in a physical world, the actions represent your ultimate willingness to state to the universe in no uncertain terms: “This is who I am.” You very often in that sense will say, “Well, I just believe this,” but it is your actions that are the ultimate statement of your beliefs. Therefore, you can always trace back from the actions to the beliefs, but you can also establish actions that would correspond to a preferred belief and simply begin to act that way. Going perhaps a bit backward: how would a person who has the belief that “I wish to have” act? Use your imagination to conjure that up and simply, again, act that way. For again, actions are the ultimate manifestation and statement to the universe that “I believe this,” at least in a physical world. And that is what we are discussing with you now, being that your choice for now is physicality.

Questions

Asker
I’m kind of paralyzed now because self-guilt is such a big issue for me. You know, feeling guilty about others is one thing, but having guilt about your own actions… aren’t those two separate things?
Asker
Elan
Elan
Well, they are under one blanket category. For the idea is the guilt while you are creating it is not an expression of self-love. The willingness to use the guilt to realign yourself with the self-love then, shall we say, creates a flow and frees you up from what you are calling the paralysis. So rather than being guilty about being guilty, you can now begin to be joyous that you notice that you are guilty, that you acknowledge it, and that you remind or remember that that guilt is not an expression of self-love. Once you know you are imposing conditions, then you can decide not to impose them. When you are simply automatic, you do not allow yourself awareness that you are imposing them to begin with.
Asker
Okay, so if one has self-guilt about an issue, first thing to do is to be aware of it, right?
Asker
Elan
Elan
Okay.
Asker
So if you’re aware of it and you can turn it back… I don’t understand. What’s the next step?
Asker
Elan
Elan
The next step is to say, “What have I done that I would prefer to not have done?” All right, I have done this. Well, I cannot undo that. However, should a similar circumstance come along, I will use the fact that… alright, creating much misery around having made that choice, I will not make that choice again. That is all. Just willing to have that resolve and saying, “Perhaps let me at it in terms of creating it again and not doing that,” can begin to turn you again, on a fulcrum, toward again realigning with self-love. Does that make sense?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Whatever it is, and again I will assume it to be private that you are feeling guilty about, can you see that given a similar set of circumstances your actions would now be different?
Asker
But there’s many guilt issues in my life.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Well, go one at a time. The point is, given the opportunity to have a similar set of circumstances, would you now be willing to use that to do something else? It just… guilt is like… now, now answer the question. Would you be willing, under a similar set of circumstances, pick any one of the issues, to now do something else since you know how it felt to have done the thing you feel was out of your integrity? Yes or no?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan

You are in balance now. Simply go about your life, and when perhaps, if it comes along again, do what you are saying. Remind yourself, then you have used that creation, the guilt itself. Then you are treating yourself with unconditional love. Your willingness to even say, “Next time, if there is one, I will not do that again,” is all you need do.

Knowing this, you now know who you are, and you are doing the only thing that is available to you, rather than, shall we say, lamenting about something you quote-unquote cannot change in the past. So from what you have said to me, you have created the balance. Now simply be willing, if again a situation comes along similar, to prove to yourself and perhaps the universe by extension that you really mean that. And you will give yourself in many of these instances the opportunity to create a similar set of circumstances, and then you will see experientially what I mean. But it begins as an idea. It begins as the willingness to understand that judgment is the imposition of conditions, that what you call forgiveness is the willingness to once again be unconditional.

You are loved even if you choose to despise and hate and destroy, so to speak, yourself. All That Is will sit by unconditionally loving you through the process.

Although it sounds like an irony, it is the unconditional love of All That Is itself that allows you to not unconditionally love yourself. For there are no conditions.

You may explore anything you wish. This is the granting of complete free will. This is the granting of complete unconditional love. Never will you lose that love. Now we are speaking again about creating, shall we say, treating yourself with that same respect.

Asker
Well, I think my biggest issue is something that has been ingrained in me… oh, ingrained yes, since childhood.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Therefore, perhaps you can say a choice that has come up many times and you have bought into. Yeah. Do you wish to share it? A large part of my life? Do you wish to share it? Perhaps we can utilize it as a transformative example.
Asker
Okay. Um, I think guilt in my mother’s death.
Asker
Elan
Elan
In what way did you physically kill her? No? Oh my. In what way then? Um, and even if you had, you would create an opportunity to kill someone else and then perhaps not do it. But in what way are you perceiving—for it is our perception that it is not, shall we say, part of her perspective—in what way are you perceiving that you have responsibility for rather than to her death?
Asker
Well, I had a large… I felt I grew into a role of large responsibility to her and her help. And I feel that through that period I was responsible.
Asker
Elan
Elan
All right. So then you prolonged her life in that sense? Is that what you were saying?
Asker
I’m saying that uh… that I didn’t have…
Asker
Elan
Elan
Take your time. Yeah, or make your time.
Asker
It’s just that I feel responsible for her death, like I didn’t take good enough care of her.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Can you have done any better?
Asker
No.
Asker
Elan
Elan
What is the point of beating yourself up like this if you know that you have done the best you can? Then you have been fully responsible to her. She has been responsible for herself, for her timing, for her agreements. Now, can you release this and allow her the same respect in creating her own reality as you are now viewing of respect of yourself for creating your own? Our perception is fully that you have been responsible to her to the best of your ability. So what are you creating as an obstacle to believing this?
Asker
No, I… I just don’t know.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Well, first of all, you do know. Yes. So assuming that you do now, what comes up? You’re getting there. Keep going. Follow the thread.
Asker
I don’t know. Nurturing comes up for me. Responsibilities for nurturing.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Well, as you have shared, you had done that to the best of your ability. You had perhaps increased the quality of the end of her life. Is this correct?
Asker
The quality? I think so. All right, I’m not real sure on that because it was painful.
Asker
Elan
Elan
In what way?
Asker
I think it was painful for her and it wasn’t… it was painful for me.
Asker
Elan
Elan
What is it that was painful?
Asker
The lifestyle that we led at that time.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Do you acknowledge your own creation of your reality? Yes or no?
Asker
Yes, I do.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Do you acknowledge her creation of her reality? Yes or no?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Do you understand that doing all that you can do to be responsible to her is the only way that you can express your creation of your reality and also allow her the same right? Yes or no?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Therefore, are you going to continue to be responsible for her choices as well? Yes or no? And can you really even be responsible for them?
Asker
No, I can’t.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Are you willing to release this feeling?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Are you willing, in a similar set of circumstances, to once again do the best that you can but still allow the granting of the validity to their choices and their creation as well? Yes or no?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
You have transformed this idea. Now how does that feel?
Asker
It feels renewing and I’m aware of that. It just keeps coming back.
Asker
Elan
Elan
No, no, no. That is not… As what is coming back? When you say it is coming back and you think about it, what do you feel?
Asker
The memory of the…
Asker
Elan
Elan
No, no, no. What do you feel emotionally? Happiness? Sadness? Anger?
Asker
Weight. I feel a heavy weight of a burden.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Now feeling this weight, feel it. Can you conjure it up?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
You are this weight. Yes. What must you believe right now under the specific set of circumstances that we are discussing to feel this weight? Go with it. Say the first thing that comes to your mind without any hesitation.
Asker
I’m carrying the responsibility of her death.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Is that the belief? That’s what I feel. All right. Now you have seen that believing this has these feelings. And when you believe and feel something, you create thought patterns and then you act that way. Yes? Yes. Perhaps that is a contracted action with hesitation. Yes? Yes. Now what is the preferred belief that you wish to have?
Asker
That I release and I let go and I let her… let her die.
Asker
Elan
Elan

Close your eyes. Now, let’s Make believe. Stay light. You can still have some fun and transform this at the same time.

State to yourself the preferred belief until you feel it and describe for me the feeling. Do not allow the old belief to creep in there for the purposes of this game.

State the new belief aloud or to yourself—it does not matter—but when you feel it, until you feel it, and then describe that feeling to me.

Asker
Could you help me phrase the belief? I’m not clear on what I… I should phrase.
Asker
Elan
Elan

I will allow you to do so, but I will assist. What is, for one moment, put this aside the again non-preferred belief that you are responsible for your mother’s death?

Yes. Thank you. All had said, what is the reciprocal of this belief?

Asker
That I’m not responsible for her death and that… and you are fully respons…
Asker
Elan
Elan
I to her. Yes. Now state this and tell me how this feels, isolating it from all other beliefs for the moment. And keep saying it to yourself too. You feel it? You have all the time you need.
Asker
Well, I’ll say it out loud: “I release the responsibility of her death and I let her go on. It is her… her choice.”
Asker
Elan
Elan
Are your eyes still closed?
Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
How does this feel?
Asker
It feels good to affirm it.
Asker
Elan
Elan
All right. Then continue to affirm it within yourself until you build an intensity of this good feeling and describe that good feeling to me.
Asker
It… it feels good to release. Just to see her go.
Asker
Elan
Elan
How does it feel? Do not describe the circumstance. Describe the feeling in your heart.
Asker
I don’t think I want to let go.
Asker
Elan
Elan

That will always be your option. And your wants factor into this. Perhaps you may wish to explore what you have invested in holding on to.

What do you have invested in holding on to it? What do you get out of maintaining that belief?

Asker
I don’t think a lot of positive things.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Specifically, what does it allow you to do, or what excuse does it allow you to create? To feel sorry for myself? For some sort of self-nurturing? You know, from not from myself or something? That is not what you are getting out of it. What do you get out of it? What does it allow you to do to hold on to a belief such as this that you do not prefer? Look at it from that perspective. Explore. Does it allow you to not do things? Does it allow you the excuse to remain stagnant? What are you afraid will happen if you do things?
Asker
That perhaps I could fail.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Ah. Now we are getting down to it. May I ask you a question? If you fail, so what? What will happen?
Asker
Well, what do you imagine will happen? I just know that if I fail… it’s okay. I still will exist.
Asker
Elan
Elan
May I ask you a question? What is failure to you?
Asker
Um, I guess judgments of the others around me.
Asker
Elan
Elan

May I provide my perspective of what failure is? Not maintaining your clear intention. Period. Allowing your reality to talk you out of your clear intention. For if something happens or does not happen in a given moment, it is always still an option, as we have discussed, to maintain it as an intention. And maintaining it as an intention keeps it locked into place, keeps it right there as something you will do. “I intend to do this.” The moment you sell yourself short and release the intention using a circumstance in the present as evidence that you can’t have it, then perhaps you can label it as a form of failure.

Are you willing, no matter what happens in a given moment, to maintain your clear intention? Then you can never fail. And you will always reground yourself back into the moment by saying, “All right, I intended to do this. It is not happening in this moment. Therefore, this is not the moment for it to happen. However, I still intend to do this. I will put it aside as an intention. Now that that is out of the way, what is right in front of me? This, this, and that. Which one excites me? This. Can I act on it with integrity? Yes.” You are now back in motion. You now have overcome, so to speak, the paralysis. And by maintaining it as a clear intention, there is no such thing as failure. Does this make sense? Are you willing to do that?

Asker
Yes.
Asker
Elan
Elan
Do you now still have an investment in holding on to the feeling that you need be responsible for your mother?
Asker
No. I see no need.
Asker
Elan
Elan

All right. It is this simple: maintain your clear intention, align yourself with your desires, understand your ability to deserve, be clear with your definitions and beliefs, and perform clear action from what is available, maintaining the clear intention. If that intention is not available, you can never fail with this formula. It is the first thing that ever came through this channel and it will continue to come through, for it is the key to consciously creating according to preference: clear intention, clear desire, deservability definition, and clear action.

Now allow this to roll around. We will proceed to interacting with others. Listen up. They as well as you are sharing in this exploration. The presence of each and every one is no accident. If you will begin to concentrate on your similarities rather than your differences, this will become most apparent. If, as we are going along, something comes up, please share. Again, much has been said. Allow it to sink in and maintain your clear intention. You will then never fail.

If you will, understanding that this applies to each and every one of you as well, applaud this individual for his courage. Again, understand you are applauding yourselves as well.

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