Billy's Blockade

I arrived as soon as possible, but unfortunately it still took several hours, because I was simply not available.

Yes, because everything came out of you to me like a helpless scream. Your blockade was destroyed and evil influences were able to seize you. I am talking about what happened this morning.

Sure, but this outburst of today was not your fault alone, because by destroying your blockade all sorts of negative forces aimed at you were able to penetrate you, triggering a kind of explosion in you, which was already the case yesterday and the day before yesterday.

You are completely overworked and your nerves are very weakened. I experienced these things this morning when your blockade collapsed and a very weird scream came from you to me. Quetzal tried to get to the bottom of things at my request and analysed the following: Your powers of consciousness are tired to such an extent that it is already dangerous for you. This also affects your nerves and you lose control over them.

Primarily, the reason is that you are fully burdened and even overburdened with many problems that cause you hard work. According to Quetzal, you also work on the problems of no less than 11 people to whom you devote yourself at night, conveying health to them or otherwise sending them some impulses of help. Instead of sleeping, you will only fall asleep while doing heavy work with your powers of consciousness.

That alone would be enough to destroy you in the shortest possible time in every respect, and it is a mystery to us how you have been able to cope with this at all so far, since, according to Quetzal, you have already been working for several months in this very power-consuming kind and wise.

But that is not all, because you are also doing manual work every day, and have a lot of exhausting conversations with visitors, as well as the tasks with the centre. Again, you have been influenced in negative form by the unpleasant concerns about Adolf, and currently also by things about Hans, whereby I have already pointed out to you several times, as with Adolf, that you must not rely too much on your feelings and on your charity, because the chance you gave them would not be used and in the end would only be used against you. But you did not listen to me when you suffered damage.

But now it has come so far that you are at the end of your strength and can no longer go on. Your nerves are ruined, and that endangers our entire mission. Not only are you getting more and more behind with your written work, but you are slowly running the danger of destroying yourself. You already know the beginning of this, because you have seen and experienced what has resulted from it. If you continue like this, your end will soon be near and unpredictable at a much earlier time.

You shall burden yourself with less work in other relationships. So you remain with your strength and are finally able to do the work that you have imposed on yourself in cooperation with us. This written work is getting more and more in arrears.

There are enough group members who can do it.

If things are organised overall, then it can be arranged without much effort. You should appoint someone to take over the organisation, as you once suggested to me. Engelbert would be best suited for this.

Talk to him about it anyway, because he is the best. But now I have to explain to you that in the future you should only devote yourself to your work. But that you can do this again, as always, it is necessary that I take you with me to my ship for a few minutes to regenerate your nerves and also some other things in you.

It will not take long; come now.

How do you feel now?

Sure, that is how it should be. But now please be careful with your powers and from now on please act according to my advice.

You destroyed your blockade by all your work and your burdens, which you did not realise, because your anger almost made you race and lose all control. As a result, malignant swinging-waves penetrated into you, which are directed at you by directional beam devices through the Giza-Intelligences. The rupture of the blockade meant that these swinging-waves were able to penetrate you unhindered and trigger reactions in you that are dangerous not only for yourself but for all our tasks, because you act so unreasonably and emotionally when these swinging-waves hit you that have to work destructively upon you. All the group members surrounding you, however, do not understand your actions when you reacted to these attacks in such a manner that they also badgered you harshly and possibly badmouthed you, although it would be better for them to thoroughly consider the how and why of your suddenly very different actions and assist you accordingly. At least in this manner they could help you in small measures. But this morning only your wife really tried to do that, while Amata acted completely inappropriately. Jacobus also seemed to be understanding, even if he looked at things from a somewhat simpler observation point.

Sure, but Amata had completely absurd thoughts, as Quetzal found out. And they were quite crude thoughts.

I will discuss this with father first, after which I can give you some advice. In two days at the latest, I will be here again and bring you the latest calculations regarding the Centre times. I meet father tonight, then it can be perhaps already tomorrow that I come again to you.